Mario Benedetti

Hace un par de horas, mi primo Adrian me preguntó si me gustaba Mario Benedetti. Respondí que en alguna ocasión tuve un libro de él en mano y no me gustó, pero a decir verdad, yo no estaba segura de mis palabras. Tal vez, esa vez que tuve el libro (que recuerdo muy bien, estaba leyendo Valeria Salamanca) ni siquiera le puse atención. Así que me di a la tarea de leer poesía de Benedetti.

Entre lo que leí, había poemas bonitos, como Currículum, y muy bonitos, como El Otro Yo. Al cabo de unas cuantas lecturas rápidas (y la búsqueda infructuosa de un análisis de la poesía de Mario Benedetti) supe qué era lo que tanto me molestaba de él, aún sin haberlo leído concienzudamente: me molestaba que él, junto a Sabines, se ha convertido en el producto literario por excelencia; ése que siempre se tiene a la mano para demostrar determinados sentimientos. Si se quiere hablar del sexo “macho” con un trisito de amor guardado se usa a Jaime Sabines, para hablar del amor con alitas rosadas disfrazado de sentimiento diferente a todos los demás se usa a Mario Benedetti. ¿A qué mujer no le han dedicado un poema de Benedetti en sus años cursis? Bueno, que yo recuerde a mí nunca me han dedicado un poema en la vida, pero sé que Táctica y estrategia figura en el repertorio romántico de siempre, sin falta, el facilista.

James Pollock solía decir en su clase de Poetry Writing que el uso repetitivo de una expresión le quita vida y la vuelve cliché. La única esperanza para los clichés es revivirlos, darles un uso innovador. Benedetti y Sabines se están convirtiendo en viejos clichés de la literatura latinoamericana. Si realmente queremos rendirles homenaje por el genio que se supone que cada uno alberga dentro de sí, no debemos usar sus novedades como se pasa por radio una nueva canción de pop o se usa una prenda de moda, tantas veces y para objetivos tan banales que al cabo de un rato no queda más remedio que recordarlos como algo que marcó toda una época… pero que ya no se usa.

Okay…

Okay, here’s the part I ommitted from the last quiz… Here it goes. Let’s do it really really existential & poetic!

I HURT: many times, when I speak… Worst of all, it’s not that I don’t think before speaking and my words hurt, it’s that I think so that the words I speak hurt

I LOVE: the sound of the rain from my bedroom, good music, the internet, writing good stuff, singing, Japanese coffee cream pan, Almond Crush Pocky, Xylish Fruity Mint, San Francisco, Napa Valley, Chicago, the taste of sushi, the taste of shawerma, The Beatles, Billy Joel, Michelle Branch, Minori’s kare raisu, the feeling I get when I start to understand a new language, the way Kotaro says “sumimasen”, going to office supplies stores, Minori, Paul McCartney’s face when he was younger, holding an interesting conversation, Milo, seashells, good science fiction, gazing at the stars…

I HATE: lusty guys, soccer-fan buddy-dependent guys, superficial people, weak minds, guys with female obsessions, consumerism/pop culture, how consumerism tells people who to love and who to hate, the way media has forced girls into eating disorders by convincing them that the only way to be successful is being sexually attractive (not necessarily pretty), women as objects, racism, classism, xenophobia, SoHo magazine, the way the whole world is going!!! It drives me nuts!!!

I FEAR: there will never be a safe place in the world, consumerism will finish my writing career right before it starts

I HOPE: this terrible consumerist world will finally let me make my dreams come true, my future life will turn out fine

I FEEL: my life has a gleam of hope, and a beautiful one

I HIDE: from someone I want to insult really bad

I DRIVE: the spaceship of my life… towards a great galaxy I’m yet to see

I MISS: those wonderful last weeks in DBQ, all the time I had then in my hands to enjoy with Minori and Kotaro,… and yeah I miss Minori, but you already know that

I LEARNED: pessimism is not always the answer to my questions

I NEED: to write a new story, to see Minori again (and spend a looooooooooong time with him), to make sure my major is the right one, to get rid of my cold,

I THINK: sometimes too much…

It’s time to sleep. Wanna say something about my stupid blog? Speak up!!!

Hey!!! More Useless Quizzes!!!

I love to fill them out!!!

last cigarette: I don’t smoke, thank you very much

last kiss: that’s totally private, and yeah, it was sad…

last good cry: the night before leaving DBQ

last library book checked out: hm hm hm I believe it was that Elizabeth Barrett Browning stuff I needed for my Poetry class thing

last movie seen: it must have been Battle Royale… horrible movie

last book read: completely? Patriotism, by Mishima Yukio

last cuss word uttered: I don’t utter those words!

last beverage drank: some hot celery water my mom gave me

last food consumed: chicken and cooked green peas

last crush: you mean a bad crush? nah, better not remember…

last phone call: Maria del Carmen Celis!

last time showered: this morning! yay!

last shoes worn: my red shoes

last cd played: The Essential Billy Joel

last item bought: ice cream at Crepes & Waffles

last downloaded: some song… ah, Michelle Branch

last annoyance: that awful cold that kept me in bed

last disappointment: hm… hm… can’t remember

last soda drank: Coca-Cola at my uncle’s

last thing written: this stupid blog!

last key used: Minori’s apartment’s, if I’m not mistaken

last words spoken: “vea usted!”

last sleep: last night, it was wonderful… you don’t know how good it feels to recover from a bad cold

last im: Sandra Pérez

last weird encounter: oh that time when Sandra Pérez and I saw Carlos Márquez from afar and jumped into a record store

last ice cream eaten: Crepes & Waffles… some vanilla and chocolate, I don’t remember the name

last time amused: some minutes ago, talking to my daddy!

last time wanting to die: I don’t remember

last time in love: NOW

last time hugged: a few hours ago, by my mom

last time scolded: very hard? maybe like some months ago, when my cell phone was off and my parents wanted to call

last time resentful: during and after my tragic stay in Miami

last chair sat on: the one I’m sitting on to type….

last lipstick used: that dumb plum lipstick that never lasted more than a few minutes

last shirt worn: the pink shirt I’m wearing right now

last time dancing: a few days ago, with my sister

last poster looked at: my sister keeps her room closed, so I can’t see her posters…

last show attended: hm hm hm… oh that laser show at the planetarium! that was way cool!

last webpage visited: my stupid blog

This is getting long and boring…

I’ll take the liberty to abolish some part that looks like another quiz I already answered.

current clothes: pinkish red pants, pink shirt, purple sweater, blue jacket (yeah I have a cold, I must keep warm)

current mood: thoughtful

current music: Milonga del marinero y el capitán, by Los Rodríguez

current taste: none… I had my dinner long ago

current hair: straight, dark brown, parted to the side, not very interesting… like almost always

current annoyance: persistent cough

current smell: I can’t smell right now

current thing i should be doing: calling my friends to tel them about my birthday

current desktop picture: Shrek

current refreshment: none

current worry: how am I supposed to invite my friends to my birthday if I don’t want to use the phone?

I suck.

This Is Not Working

I don’t like this blog. It’s stupid. I’m writing in English, and I’m writing about nothing. I used to write my deepest feelings and ideas in my old website, but now that I can’t do it IT SUCKS!!! Besides, nobody reads it anymore. People used to like my old website. They don’t like this anymore…

Maybe it’s not a matter of whether the website has a nice design or not. After all, the soul of the website is my writing, and not the design. I’ll try to improve the design, though, to make my writing even more pleasant.

Plus! I will begin writing in Spanish occasionally.

That’s all.