{"id":925,"date":"2024-09-16T13:00:44","date_gmt":"2024-09-16T18:00:44","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/?p=925"},"modified":"2024-09-16T14:13:59","modified_gmt":"2024-09-16T19:13:59","slug":"elegy-for-closed-tabs","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/2024\/09\/16\/elegy-for-closed-tabs\/","title":{"rendered":"Elegy for Closed Tabs"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"has-drop-cap\">Why oh why, <em>why on Earth<\/em> am I still playing the charade of doing basically all my web surfing on incognito\/private mode? It made sense maybe ten years ago, when I realized I was using my browsing history to trace my every move online just to remember what I was doing on a certain day\u2014probably an anxiety-induced frenzy. I decided to go full incognito in an effort to kill that urge, or at least the possibility to fulfill it. So now I go on opening tab after tab after tab because <em>it will help me remember that I will need this later<\/em>, as if an open tab were an item in a to-do list, until months later something insignificant happens and <em>boom<\/em>, in an instant all the tabs are gone forever. And then I feel like half my brain and life history have blown up in smithereens, because I absolutely cannot remember what any of those tabs contained, but surely they were really important, otherwise why would I leave them up like that, and their presence there must have conveyed something about who I was and what I was doing and thinking about back then (<em>when?<\/em>), and earlier than that, like a slice of earth and its rock layers.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This particular batch of tabs, the one I&#8217;m mourning <em>right now<\/em>, feels like I&#8217;ve just lost some souvenirs from a wonderful trip. Lord knows the real loss was exponentially worse. Still, the real memories of recent marvelous travels remain intact, as does the joy of them happening.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I told Cavorite while we brushed our teeth that I had a bunch of old tabs close on me.<br>\u201cGood!\u201d he said.<br>\u201cCold water is healthy,\u201d I replied, \u201cbut it&#8217;s still a bucket of cold water.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Why oh why, why on Earth am I still playing the charade of doing basically all my web surfing on incognito\/private mode? It made sense maybe ten years ago, when I realized I was using my browsing history to trace my every move online just to remember what I was doing on a certain day\u2014probably [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/925"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=925"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/925\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":931,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/925\/revisions\/931"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=925"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=925"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=925"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}