{"id":178,"date":"2004-01-23T12:50:00","date_gmt":"2004-01-23T12:50:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/2004\/01\/23\/tff-yearning-missing-a-thousand-shards-of-me\/"},"modified":"2004-01-23T12:50:00","modified_gmt":"2004-01-23T12:50:00","slug":"tff-yearning-missing-a-thousand-shards-of-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/2004\/01\/23\/tff-yearning-missing-a-thousand-shards-of-me\/","title":{"rendered":"TFF! (Yearning, Missing, A Thousand Shards of Me)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Last night I dreamed about Minori and Kotaro. We were all together here in Bogota, having fun as we usually did in Dubuque. We spent the entire day going around the city&#8230; Man, I <b>do<\/b> miss them.<\/p>\n<p>And maybe these Friday Five will be just dreams. My favorite things seem to have evaporated. I married the wrong girl, a friend of mine in whose lips I can&#8217;t find a tinge of passion&#8230; (I&#8217;m sorry for those confused, it&#8217;s just an allegory for something that&#8217;s troubling me, and I just can&#8217;t say &#8220;I married the wrong  <em>man<\/em> &#8220;&#8230; maybe the image of a wrong girl whom a man can&#8217;t stand makes a better image in my mind.) <\/p>\n<p>At this moment, what is your favorite&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>1. &#8230;song?<\/strong><br \/>\n<br \/><em>Gessekai<\/em> , by Buck-Tick. No, I&#8217;m not an otaku and you all know it! BUT, I&#8217;m a j-pop and j-rock fan (thanks to Kotaro\/Scudelia Electro, and Minori\/Hi-Standard, The Blue Hearts), so I&#8217;m quite obsessed with this song&#8230; I listened to it carefully when Minori stayed here and watched Nightwalker. As you might have guessed, I now watch Nightwalker every now and then. It was nice to sit on the floor, eat oranges, watch that tv show together&#8230; It made my nights worthwhile. Too bad he&#8217;s not here anymore. And he&#8217;s going to be farther yet very soon.<\/p>\n<p><strong>2. &#8230;food?<\/strong><br \/>\n<br \/>I&#8217;d bet my life on saba sushi. No, I wouldn&#8217;t bet my life. But yes I&#8217;d love to eat some sushi right now. I guess I&#8217;ll have miso soup for breakfast.<\/p>\n<p><strong>3. &#8230;tv show?<\/strong><br \/>\n<br \/>Sakura Mail: Tonma saw Urara crying in the rain, and despite her sadness, he said, he saw her  <em>shining<\/em> . This vision made him recognize at last the love inside and kissed her. Could it get any better? I&#8217;m shattered.<\/p>\n<p><strong>4. &#8230;scent?<\/strong><br \/>\n<br \/>Honey. If the world were mine, it would all smell like honey.<\/p>\n<p><strong>5. &#8230;quote?<\/strong><br \/>\n<br \/>Unfortunately, my world right now doesn&#8217;t come in quotes, but in melodies. Give me that crescendo in  <em>Indefinitely<\/em> , by Travis, and my heart will find a temporary balm.<br \/>\n<br \/>Not enough? Then take this: &#8220;I really miss you.&#8221; Minori said this, and this is all I need. Yeah, people, I&#8217;m shattered. I&#8217;m thinking of divorce, but&#8211;<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m made of glass, 9.8m\/s^2 pull me faster and faster, and the floor is so close, so hard&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Maybe the noise will be beautiful, and then I&#8217;ll be reflecting rainbows all around the room.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Last night I dreamed about Minori and Kotaro. We were all together here in Bogota, having fun as we usually did in Dubuque. We spent the entire day going around the city&#8230; Man, I do miss them. And maybe these Friday Five will be just dreams. My favorite things seem to have evaporated. I married [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/178"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=178"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/178\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=178"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=178"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=178"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}