{"id":436,"date":"2010-07-01T11:36:00","date_gmt":"2010-07-01T11:36:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/2010\/07\/01\/gigantic-gruesome-girl-from-outer-space\/"},"modified":"2010-07-01T11:36:00","modified_gmt":"2010-07-01T11:36:00","slug":"gigantic-gruesome-girl-from-outer-space","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/2010\/07\/01\/gigantic-gruesome-girl-from-outer-space\/","title":{"rendered":"Gigantic Gruesome Girl from Outer Space"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"post_text\">\n<p>Today I tried on a pair of shorts that were  too tight. I was thinking that I had mistakenly picked a size S, but  then I checked the label and realized they were size L. This meant I was  bigger than the last chance to wear that piece of clothing. But how  come, if I\u2019m no bigger than the average Impressionist nude?<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m not thin. I have a round belly and skin folds. I\u2019m soft to the  touch. I\u2019m mostly comfortable with my body, but every time I\u2019m unable to  find clothes that fit me I feel like I\u2019m being reminded that my  appearance is tragedy. Gigantic gruesome girl from outer space. It  doesn\u2019t even matter if another human being finds me  attractive as I  am\u2014what they\u2019re telling me with their ever-shrinking sizes is that  everything about me is wrong, especially eating and getting pleasure  from food. Hunger pangs and self-deprecation, that\u2019s what life should be  about, right? The fact that I\u2019m not actively seeking to alter my shape  into compactness is unacceptable to a society that keeps trying to  convince women that they should only strive to become a passive agent of  titillation. Thus, in order to trick me into continuous self-punishment  for my being comfortable with my own human nature, they make it look as  if I had to dress in tents.<\/p>\n<p>I am not horrible nor too big for any standards. It\u2019s hard to say it  with true conviction after I\u2019ve been led to believe that I\u2019m meant to  fit clothes and not the other way around, and that not fitting is a huge  character flaw that must be fixed at once. But I shall repeat it until  it rolls smoothly off my tongue. I will not give in to self-hatred.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Today I tried on a pair of shorts that were too tight. I was thinking that I had mistakenly picked a size S, but then I checked the label and realized they were size L. This meant I was bigger than the last chance to wear that piece of clothing. But how come, if I\u2019m [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/436"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=436"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/436\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=436"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=436"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/olaviakite.com\/maianebula\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=436"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}